Feb 17, 2012

Happy Is the Heart That Still Feels Pain

Edited 2/18/12:  I'm doing much better.  All is well.  I am well.  Just needed some sleep and day off.  Nativity tutorial #2 is on it's way.

Today was supposed to be our Nativity day but I'm afraid I have to postpone it a day or two.  I'm coming out of a social event that has me dealing with some major anxiety.  Like can't sleep.  Can't eat.  Heart racing.  Chest pain. Full.blown.anxiety.  It sucks.

Social events tend to put me in this place but it's been awhile since I've had a full on attack like this.  I'm usually fine at the event, the anxiety kicks in when it's done.  Anyone else have these issues?

I know it will pass.  It usually does.

In the meantime I've got a line from an Ingrid Michaelson song stuck in my head "Happy is the heart that still feels pain.  Darkness drains and light will come again."

Such truth!

In other news, if you are waiting on the next tutorial, we will be making a version - ours will be slightly different - of this guy.

You can start getting your clay colors ready, you will need:
Blue pearl
Hazel Nut (brown)
Deep Red Pearl

See you soon!


Anonymous said...

Not going to pretend to understand this particular anxiety but I CAN and will pray for you. Blessings.

Elizabeth said...

Fear, depression and anxiety are battles I have fought for all of my life. I used to have lots of health issues (combined with anxiety attacks) in college. It is really hard and I will be keeping you in my prayers. I read a verse recently that took on new meaning for me "hiding in the shadow of the wings of almighty" (or something along those lines) It struck me that shadows are dark and when I feel I am in the darkest of times I need to remember that my Savior is sheltering me in his wings.

Amy said...

Thanks to both of you. I'm doing better. My daughter, up until she was about 3 years old had major issues with over-stimulization. We'd go to family parties and she'd have night-terrors after. She'd cry and be clingy for no reason the next day. I kind of think that is what happens to me, only on an adult level. I don't have night terrors, but the over-stimulization presents itself in other ways.

Kristi said...

I lost a 16 yr old son in Aug, 2006. Afterwards I developed anxiety really bad to the point of getting lost in my small town that only has 1 stoplight! It still rears its ugly head at times. Last year we visited Chicago on vacation and were at Shedd Aquarium when it hit me out of nowhere. I guess it was the crowds. Needless to say, we were back at the hotel room for the rest of the day. I feel for you. Hang in there. Looking forward to the next figure in the Nativity Tutorial.