Mar 22, 2012

Goodbye My Love!

This week I've had two shocks that left me feeling like a deer caught in the headlights.  And, frankly, it sucks.  Can I say that here?  It sounds so un-lady like but it's a fitting word for how I feel. Because of this, I have been prompted to take action.

I'm cutting ties with my one true love.
I'm saying good-bye.
I'm letting go.

It's going to be hard but it will be worth it.

So here's what happened.  Growing up, I was always a string bean.  In fact, in Junior High I was given the nick-name Ethopian Chicken.  It was not a nice nick-name.  The name came about because in the mid-80's there was a horrible famine in Ethopia.  The media was filled with devastating images of people, skin sagging off of their bones, dying.  Starving to death. I still have images in my head of children with arms as thin as toothpicks and bloated bellies.  The emptiness in their eyes that showed in those photographs was heartbreaking.  It was a horrible thing to see and news about Ethopia was everywhere.  Even as self-absorbed teens we were aware.  During this time, I went to school one day wearing tight fitting, gray, 501 jeans with a yellow stripped sweater.  My friends, seeing my skinny legs and associating the colors of my outfit with a farm fowl, decided that I looked like a chicken and one that had not been fed.  I became known as the Ethopian Chicken.

High School wasn't much better.  Girls are mean and I often heard cruel comments about my weight, my bird legs and about my hip bones that protruded out.  In my early years of high school people were convinced I had an eating disorder.  I didn't.  I was just thin.  College helped though, that freshman 15 hit and I finally looked normal.  I held onto a good weight until my twins were born and then, poof, that natural, easy, no-work slenderness went away.

Now, 10 years later, I find my self in an unknown area and I know I need to make some changes.

Shock number one came when I was helping some friends out this week and saw an episode of the Biggest Loser while at their house.  I don't usually connect to shows like that but as I watched I realized that one of the show's contestants had a starting weight that is what I weigh now.  My mind raced with questions.  Is that what I look like?  Am I that big?  I justified it, I'm taller than her so I hold my weight better.  That was a lie.  I knew it but it made me feel better.

This morning shock number two came with a phone call from my Doctor.  Nobody wants a 7am phone call from a doctor.  My blood test results showed some areas of concern. Concerns that I've just been pushing to the back of my mind.  I knew about them.  I didn't need a test to tell me.  I've just been really good about ignoring them.

I can't any more.

Today is my day to make some changes.  I will never be an Ethopian Chicken again.  Bird legs aren't in my future and I won't be seeing my hip bones any time soon.  As an almost 40 year old woman, I will never have it easy where my weight is concerned again but I can make some changes that will last a lifetime and that's what I will be working on.

So, today, I publicly say good-bye (if I say it publicly, it makes it more real) to my one true love ....

 
I've loved you since 1993.  You've been in my life for as long as I've been married and I've never betrayed you.  I stayed loyal to our union even when I've been so thirsty I could die and the only thirst quenching option given was Pepsi - I declined, I waited for you.  Only you.  I avoided restaurants that didn't serve you.  I'd meet you at Sonic for Happy Hour, you were best with crushed ice and vanilla.  I liked you caffeine-free and sometimes with cherry too.  I used to tell people you solved all my problems.  Like some people need a cigarette I would say, "I just need a coke!"  You comforted me when I was stressed and you joined me on long drives and picnics in the park.  You've been my go-to companion and I've so enjoyed your company.  So, it is with sadness that I break up with you today.

Thanks for being with me with through the thick and the thin.  But truth is, you've just been making me thick and that's just not working for me anymore.

And, in case you are wondering, and I don't mean to make you jealous, but you have been replaced.

 

A tall drink of water has been waiting for its time with me.  I've flirted with this relationship before but couldn't turn on you.  It's time though.  Water has offered me things that you can not give me; a thinner waist line, more energy, healthier skin, a lower bill at the dentist office and a comforting shield against diabetes.

So, goodbye my love, Water is now the one for me.

P.S. - While this was a personal post, thanks for letting me take a break from my usual crafty posts.  If anyone out there has been successful at giving up soda, I'd love to hear from you.  Chocolate and candy don't really tempt me.  My difficulties will be in giving up my ice cold cokes and cutting down my carbs,  I'm not going completely without the carbs, just cutting them back.  Anyway, I'd love to hear your success stories.  Please share.

31 comments:

Anonymous said...

I've struggled with my weight for several years now and I certainly understand how that realization made you feel. It's painful to look at the scale and then look at the mirror and watch your perception of yourself change. But kudos to you for making a change! I'm telling you now it wont be easy, and there will be days when you feel like it's not doing anything, but always hold to the fact that you had the courage to do SOMETHING! Nothing is more important than that first step. I can offer a little assurance in the fact that if you manage to stay away from soda long enough, you will stop wanting it, and when you taste it again you'll wonder why you ever drank it in the first place. At least that's how it worked for me. I still drink it occasionally, but not as much as I used to. Another thing to remember, exercise is a wonderful thing. It really makes you feel better. Personally, I have never been a runner or anything like that, but crunches are my thing. :) I know it sounds strange, but that's what I'm good at and it makes me happy. You've got to find the thing that you like to do and start from there. Intense bike rides and jogging kinda freak me out, but long walks, some weight lifting, and lots of crunches are a lot nicer to me. I'm kinda weird like that, but the point is you've got to find a way to enjoy your exercise. And if you're ever feeling discouraged, it's nice to have something simple to fall back on so that you can tell yourself, "I can't fix everything all at once, but I can at least do this." I hope that helps and I wish you the best in your new endeavor!

Emily S said...

First of all, congratulations to you! Second, I totally identify with the withdrawals from soda. My nutritionist had me drop ALL processed sugars and grains. That means not only no more soda, but no more bread, no more pasta, no more cookies, etc. I remember those first few days, craving especially the soda's carbonation. It was really difficult, but honestly, after the first few days the feelings went away. If you get bored with water, try some of the different Zinger teas by Celestial Seasonings. They are 100% organic and sweetened with Stevia (but I don't notice the aftertaste at all). You can also take cold water and put cucumber slices, mint leaves and a little bit of lemon juice in a pitcher, then just keep that in your fridge. DELICIOUS. I wish you all the very best. I know I have dropped quite a bit of weight since starting my diet 10 weeks ago and I feel so much better and healthier. If you need any support, you can find my blog at http://neverendingbutterflies.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

I gave up soda (Diet Coke) last year for 6 months, not so much for my weight, but because it is soooo bad for me!! I fell off the wagon in the fall, but now only have it if I go out to eat. No soda at home. It has helped! Good luck to you!

Anonymous said...

You can totally do it!! Like you, I was a huge Coke lover. It was my soda of choice. But when my waistline started to creep up and my energy levels drooped down, I knew something had to give. I've been completely off for several months now and can honestly say I do not miss it at all. Once you get over the first little bit where the addiction is telling you you want a fix, you won't even crave it anymore at all. Trust me! And if you need more motivation, there is a popular article circling around about 5 bad effects from drinking soda. You can probably google it. But it made me look at soda in a whole new way and I have no intention of ever going back to it. You will feel SO much better without it. Good luck! :)

Anonymous said...

Here is that article I mentioned above. http://www.care2.com/greenliving/9-disturbing-side-effects-of-soda.html?page=1

jasper said...

You can do this!!! I had heart palpatations and soda was the first thing the doctor said I needed to get rid of...I did...and I don't miss it...in fact...I feel so much better without it! I a total water-aholic...always have one in my hand and if I want some flavor I use some lemon! That was 10 years ago and I don't miss it! Now I don't even like the fizz! You can do it!!! Yes you can!!

Lula said...

i weigh 194and i have to loose weight i was just told i have type 2 diabetes and high blood pressure.i miss all my favorite foods and i have to learn how to cook healthy.MY POINT IS YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

Tom said...

Gave it up 4 years ago. Crystal Light Citrus Splash and 20 oz bottled water saved me. Don't drink much of anything else. Can't stand water by itself and after 4 years I can't stand any carbinated drinks. The first month was the hardest......from there it was a piece of cake!

Bev said...

Been there. I gave up all carbonated beverages last year and have lost 20 pounds so far. Now it's just water and ice tea. Still need the caffeine. Another thing that helps is working out. I'm not a gym rat by any means but I feel so much better after going to the gym. It gives me the motivation to keep going. Good luck and remember the 1st month is the hardest.

sllvncookie@aol.com said...

You can do it,I need do it.My problem ice cream addicted to it.I get diet kind but not helping I'm 67 & it's hard change ways as you get older.My HB doing it he's on low carb his sugar shot up.My sugar fine for now .He drinks lot water says not hungry but I don't know.lol,lol, You can ,scared me thought you were going shut blog down..Good Luck we be standing behind you.Cookie17

Kristina S. said...

I stumbled onto your blog via Pinterest a few months ago and as I poked around, I loved everything I saw. I subscribed to my first blog! (I am LOVING the nativity tutorial.) I find we share many of the same values and I appreciate that. Being a mom of 4 young ones, I am finding a need to do more things myself than just go buy them. thank you for the ideas.

Water will be your best friend. From experience, the first 3 days are the hardest. Be careful not to simply change your sugar source (cookies for Coke), when you feel the craving start to hit, drink more water. It will help wash the pallet and end the craving.

If caffeine needs are an issue (I have 4 kids:9,7,5,3), you will want to find a new source--iced tea is mine. I, too, am cutting back on a Dr. Pepper addiction (aka "Sleep in a Can). And carbs aren't bad, you just want them to be of the more natural, unprocessed, type. And when all else fails to curb a craving--PRAY!

PS this might sound silly, but I started drinking more water when I bought the Copco acrylic cup with lid and straw. I filled it up and was able to easily carry it around and it followed me nicely into the car. ($3.60 with a 40% off coupon at JoAnn's.)GL

Miss Lagasse said...

I am feeling your pain....

I LOVED diet coke. Seriously, LOVED.

I transitioned to water by drinking sparkling water with lime slices, then added water gradually. The carbonation helped me feel I was still drinking soda, but it was getting closer to water! :)

A website I have started using to help me lose weight/get healthier is www.sparkpeople.com. It is a FREE website for tracking calories, exercise, and has great tips and recipes.

You can do it!

Sarah said...

My "Coke" was Dr Pepper and sweet tea. Being diagnosed with Type II diabetes changed all that. I went cold turkey (the first two weeks were torture) and lost 60 pounds in the first 6 months. I only drink them when I go out to eat and then limit myself to one glass. At home it is water all the way. I keep a gallon in the fridge at all times. I use citrus fruit or berries to flavor it. If I am traveling, I take True Lemon, Lime and Orange with me to put in my refillable water bottle for flavor. It is totally doable. I am not much on exercises like walking or aerobics but do like to dance so I turn the radio on and get to it. Your journey will be fun and exhausting and tearful and joyful and so worth it.

Donna Huisinga said...

Cleverly written! You can do it. Keep us posted on your progress and don't be too hard on yourself. We are here as your supporters and your cheerleaders! Can you find a friend to walk with you? It is so much easier if you are accountable to someone else! You HAVE to put exercise into the mix--even if it's 10 minutes 3 times a day. Do something and drinks lots of water. Flavor it if you find it more palitable. Go girl!

Anonymous said...

One of the best things in the world you can do for yourself is get rid of the red can. You can do it! If you would like, give us a monthly progress report and we can be your cheerleaders. I don't mean you have to say I lost 2 lbs this week,I mean just tell us if it's a good week or a challenge week. Susan F.

Anonymous said...

Although my love was Pepsi, not Coke I never thought I'd see the day that water would be my drink of choice. It started about 8 yrs ago when I went on Weight Watchers. Decided to drink water during the day at work and if I wanted soda in the evening it had to be DIET Pepsi. Now I drink mostly water and an occasional soda. It was a somewhat gradual switch. Good luck !!!

Deneen said...

All I drink is water but my husband was another story. He used to drink a minimum of 12 cans of coke a day. Like you, nothing else would do. He had a physical and the Dr. told him he had to change his diet because his sugar was high. Not wanting to be on meds, he stopped the coke. I always teased him that he didn't have blood running thru his veins he had sugar. It was a long hard road but it brought his sugar down to normal and he dropped 16lbs in 2 weeks. Then he started to have a coke here and there and then I was finding empty bottles in the car. I pitched a fit and he switched to diet snapple. We were spending $200.00 a month just for him to drink. His sugar also became a problem again and was told that the diet tea was the problem. It has been 3 yrs since the start of it all and now he only drinks water. It was hard for him but he did it. He knows it is better for him.

You can do it too! Good luck to you!

Anonymous said...

I gave up my love of Diet Coke as well as chocolate and all snack foods for Lent. I thought I would miss the DC the most, but my craving for the 7 pieces of dark chocolate I eat every day was more overwhelming - go figure! I still don't miss the DC, which is quite surprising, and drink flavored waters and iced tea as replacements. Am looking forward, though, to having chocolate on Easter Sunday - hah! Good luck as you transition to more healthy "drinking" - you can do it, and we'll keep you in our prayers!

Kelly said...

Keep it up! Maybe I could get rid of the same love! That is something I have always known I needed to replace!! I am a coke addict, I admit it! I just haven't done it yet!!

Soulscrappin' said...

I am so with Sarah about Dr Pepper and sweet tea -- definitely 'my Coke.'

I had an erratic EKG in May of 2009 -- it was my 'come to Jesus' moment regarding a healthy lifestyle and healthy diet. We went to water with Crystal Light, subsequently have switched to MiO; have at least 5 servings of fruit (none after 2 pm) and veggies per day; eat only fish, chicken, and an occasional pork chop or steak. Bottom line: 24.9 lbs lost, off all prescribed meds for hypertension and Type II diabetes, and 2 pant sizes decreased.

It is not always easy ... and I am only human ... do 'fall off the wagon' occasionally. You can do this!!!

Alyssa said...

You can do it. I had a love affair with Diet Pepsi. I am about to turn 40 and decided it was not healthy anymore. It has been hard and I miss it everyday. But it is worth it. I support you.

Burchikins Lomeland said...

Best of luck to you. I have the same love of soda as you. I have tried and tried to quit drinking it and the best I can do is cut back. :o\ Check out www.myfitnesspal.com to help with the weight loss. It's like social networking so you can get support and motivation from fellow users/losers. :o) My user is drb3 if you sign up for it!
Best of luck to you.

Anonymous said...

Sorry, but Coke is not your true love but your true addiction. Grab hold of the Power of the Gospel and you can do anything. :)

Carrie said...

Congratulations on giving up soda! I had to give up caffeine when I was a teenager and couple of months ago I had to give up soda and a bunch of other favs due to health reasons. You can do it! "Gives gives me the strength to face anything!" Philippians 4:13.I don't even want soda anymore, believe it or not! I agree with the above comment of fitnesspal.com. (I'm blessedtobehis1)Some friends and me and my hubby all do it.It has a huge difference in my weight loss, 31 pounds and counting!! Exercise is your best friend in losing weight! I never thought I would want to.Never thought I would have to. When I was younger like your I was extremely skinny. I am exercising and running a tiny bit (30 seconds at time). I am almost 39 and feel better than I have in a long long time, since before my boys where born 14 years ago!
Love your blog,keep up the good work. God had started a good work in you and he is sure to finish it!

TatteredCHIX said...

Awe, I feel sad for Coke, it looks so dejected, and that arrogant glass of water has me a little worried.
I showed your article to my can of Pepsi and it started to sweat, or maybe the drops of water all over the can were tears, can't be sure. Today is not the day, but my breakup is coming soon. Does your glass of water have a brother?

dina said...

go ahead , you can do it
We wait for you

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Shannon said...

I gave up soda when I was 8 or 9 for lent and just could never take the carbonation again! Best thing for me!! Now 14 years later, I am one of the few that doesn't have stains on my teeth from it and I'm the only one in my family that doesn't struggle with weight! There are so many upsides to not drinking pop and if you are one who struggles with weight here is a little factoid for you. By giving up soda alone and not changing your diet or exercise program you can lose 15 pounds this year!!

Good Luck!!!!

grumblekitty said...

Hi! I'm a new reader, but your comments about quitting sodas struck a chord. My dh and I gave up soda a year or so ago, so we feel your pain. It is hard at the beginning, because your taste buds have been conditioned to expect that sugar hit when you have a drink, but rest assured it gets easier. Now I don't even like sodas anymore. They're so sugary-sweet, it's sickening. I won't say I never drink anything soda-ish, cause I do, but not the normal ones. I like San Pelligrino, orange or grapefruit flavors as an occasional treat, or Izzy's. They are still sodas, just made with fruit juice instead of cane or corn sugar. Not any healthier, but less sweet, and as I say, just an occasional treat. We are also working on reducing our candy intake, and making decent progress. =) Again, not eliminating entirely, but making it a special treat. Used to be dessert was an expected thing after almost every meal. Now, if we think of dessert, a single piece of hard candy (or, if I'm lucky, a piece of fruit) will do even for the chitlin. =D I call that progress.

clara said...

How is it going? Any relapse? You are my hero! I don't have to have diet coke every day but there are some days I really crave the fizz and my "nap in a can". Good luck sis. I am rooting for you!

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